Art post, 8 pictures. Also some thoughts about my life atm




Let's get the stupid part done first:


I don't even know what I'm actually mocking.



Some "I drew these during lectures that were kinda boring but I wanted to listen anyway so I drew these to concentrate"-doodles


When Code Geass ended a couple fo weeks ago, I had to draw this. I was a bit afraid how the ending would turn out, since the pacing in the last episodes was a bit bad..and too quick. But I think the ending was very fitting.


A random black woman.




ANIMALS ZOMG


I haven't CGed in a while :( I miss it.

My last post was the first one after moving..and since then, I haven't really drawn much .__. I could use the time I have well and really use traditional media more. I was thinking about drawing a comic so I'd have a bigger project to work with but I concluded that developing the plot etc takes too much time. I guess I should just draw a pure impro comic so I'd have at least something to draw, even if it ended up being crappy xp

I really hate being this dependent on computers, but I noticed that lacking one has made me notice that it has some negative effects on me. Since I have less things to do without it, I have more time to think..to think about my own problems. That's not good.

Also, I've heard this many times, but now I really have come to believe it.."don't blame your environment for your unhappiness". I have moved away from home, away from familiar circumstances and people..thinking that a fresh start would change everything. But it really hasn't. That's because the problem is in me, meaning I should change myself rather than the things around me. No matter where I lived, I would end up being unhappy because I carry the darkness with me everywhere.
But I don't know what to do..I can't fight on my own anymore. I've been seriously thinking about meeting a psychologist who could at least tell me if I need some treatment or not. I can't determine that by myself, not anymore.

One other thing would be to try to turn all these black thoughts into strength I can use in my works.

I sound a bit depressing, don't I? xD I assure you, I'm not depressed or anything that bad, my state of mind seems to be a bit melancholy permanently, lmao.